April 16

so today is such a beautiful spring day! the weather is finally looking up :-) I'm currently on break at work, I wish I could get out right now, but I get off at 5 😐. that's still not bad, though.. I'd rather not close ! omg so you know that feeling where you just wanna buy everything in sight, just because ?! I have that craving right now for food. since it's such a nice day out .. I just want to buy a slushie and also some damn icecream ! why not, right ?! cuz I'm freaking broke! LOL my birthday is coming up next week, I have no "just because" money to be spending right now, ugh. I just want everything in site because sun and because spring❗❕ lord , let me eat... 

xoxo: Rina >> 2:08 pm

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I hate sprint. Sprint is the synonym of scam. Sprint can kiss my mini a$$ !

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WCW

Took these photos today and noticed how much I looked like my mother. It made me happy because , well I love my mother and I want to be just like her. For years I was angry at her because I didn't understand why we weren't one of those happy families. I would see my friends roll around with their moms like best friends, and I would almost break down because I never understand why I DIDN'T have that. One time I lashed out all my feelings at her and felt so bad with how sad she was after all I said. Since I was so young I never really knew or realized what my mom was going through. She went through HELL with my father, and she went through it with my brothers' fathers. She had a few love interests, but none really made her happy. My mom went through that, plus being a nurse major she was in school and working 24/7. it's hard to do that and keep up with everything your children are doing. I get it. Also, she went through a lot with my grandmother too that I won't really get into... but I just never gave her credit when I was younger for being so strong! My mom is a warrior. Till this day, she can go through the worst and still keep it cool and go through it with a smile and a prayer. I love my mom! I want to be just like her! She's beautiful, she's smart and intelligent. She's an angel. She's there for everyone in need. People look up to my mom. They lean on her. My mom is the TRUTH. My mom is a superhero. I love you! I will never be angry at my mom for her hard work and her power. She's my queen. My woman crush Wednesday! Cheers to you, Wanda! #WandaCrushWednesday 😘😘😘

Come out, come out..wherever you are!

this is where I have been hiding. I have been making friends with my shirts and my dad's comfy sweaters. the closet is where I go to gather my thoughts and pray that once I exit I would get my life together. every time I feel like I'm there, I get pushed back. I know I sound like a depressed freak, but at this age — even when people tell you you should have nothing to stress about in your 20's — there's actually a lot to stress about. The thought of actually being an adult with a bunch of bills and responsibilities is stress by itself. Then you have the thought of everything being temporary — relationships , friendships , hair lengths and weight — just eating at you from time to time. It sucks, but it all depends on how you deal with it. I learn day by day not to let too much bs stress me out so much because it causes heavy anxiety. I have been experiencing severe anxiety for the past couple of months and it has caused sleep loss, hair loss, weight loss and other health issues. It really is no joke. But, even with all the loss, it doesn't make me weaker.. it makes me stronger. Because now I push myself to remain positive all the time because I know one of the horrible outcomes of negativity. And trust me, it is not pretty! So, sometimes this closet is not such a bad hiding spot, however .. being in here too long , you end up losing your hair and your mind. so I think I'm going to retire my closet soon. Especially because I've got a lot of blogging to do! Heh!

xoxo; Rina 💋

YO

All you people crying over being single and upset cause you want to be cute like those cute couples you see out in the street, on the train, at school, instagram..wherever.. Ya'll better listen to what ya'll grandmommas always told ya and "stop all that crying"! Don't wish for something your ass ain't prepared for. Relationships are not easy.. All that sappy shit you see on the tv screens is not what it all is..and even the people in the movies got issues.. Love isn't all roses and dandelions. I don't care what anyone says, love is indeed a sacrifice. You have to sacrifice a lot just to be the best you can be for that person. Doesn't mean it's a bad thing, the idea of sacrifice should not always be negative. But it's still sacrifice, it's still difficult. Loving a whole other human being apart from yourself— learning all their 700 different emotions, their likes and dislikes, their traits.. Learning to love all those things and accept them..AND dealing with them too? That shit is a JOB. Love will put you in a whole other dimension of emotions . You will feel shit you thought a human could never feel. You will laugh till your jaw hurts or cry till your eyes dry out. You will literally go 0-100 nigga real quick, where you're happy as shit one min, then as angry as the three little pigs when the wolf kept knocking down all their damn houses the next.. And then as sad as lil Bo peep when she lost her sheep after that. And then back to square one .. All in ONE DAY! and one day of all them emotions equals months and years worth of a fucking civil war. So never rush commitment if you are not ready to handle a real fucking nuclear bomb. And If you are ready, fucking deal with what you decided to. Instead of hopping from one bed to another like Goldie locks, make shit right with who's willing to make it right with you. Be a champ! Fuck what they say because love has no rules and certainly no boundaries. All I'm saying is be prepared for it the right way, and don't fall back because you feel a tingly weird substance in your stomach because guess what, that shit is called FEELINGS. And that tingly shit is only the beginning! So be a fucking superhero and learn to take love when it is given. And learn to take your damn time!

I WROTE THIS ON ALL MY BLOGS BECAUSE I WANT PEOPLE TO REALLY FUCKING SEE REALITY! TAKE IT FROM US WHO REALLY BEEN THROUGH IT BRUH. IF U SEE THIS POST WITHOUT MY NAME, U KNO WHERE IT CAME FROM AT THIS POINT....

over and out!

TEEN WOLF (AUG 18) DONT READ IF U DONT WANT TO BE SPOILED!

I repeat , do not read if you do not want to be spoiled !!!!!

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MEREDITH IS THE BENEFACTOR!!! WHAAAAAAAAT THE F#%K!? So last night (Sunday), my cousin predicted it to be the dude that works at the mental institution .. Whatever his name was .. The Nogitsune dude..! ( yeah he also played the Nogitsune, for all you fans who didn't know)..So we stuck to that prediction because it made perfect sense. All these 'suicides' reflected on him. We predicted he obvi knew about supernaturals because he had three of them (that we knew of before tonight's episode) which were Meredith, Malia, and then Stiles back when he was supernatural . And he was always just creepy! And then when Lydia and Stiles went to Meredith for help, all of a sudden, she dies of suicide. And that creep seemed to have been present when she "died". So we figured it had to be someone nobody was really focusing on, which was him. His crazy ass! So as we're watching episode 9, we were stoked! It seemed we were right all along, this crazy creep that works at the mental institution is the freakin benefactor ..... But nooooo, wait! Dude gets shot by Parrish and was all "I don't control her she's controls me" and  Lydia's all like "omg it's not him.. He's not the benefactor"  in walks Meredith like "I AM" .. WHET??! 

That's what you call a TWIST! Jeff Davis is a freaking genius!!!!!!! But why!! Why is Meredith doing all of this? Why would she put her own name on the list? Why would she want all supernaturals deceased? What the heck supernatural is Parrish? Why did Lydia write Stiles name on that paper??????? And most importantly (to me anyway) WHAT DOES MEREDITH BEING THE BENEFACTOR HAVE TO DO WITH PETER NOT BEING ON THE LIST?

Being that I cannot elaborate on any question but that last, let me proceed to elaborate on it because I think there's a big connection there. Okay so we know Lydia got bit by Peter all the way back in the Season 1 finale. Peter was a warewolf, but Lydia turns into a banshee. Lydia's grandmother was a banshee. So it's prob a genetic thing , and prob one that her grams saw coming. Peter somehow knew to bite Lydia and knew what she would turn into , because he tells her it was his BITE that lit the spark....confirming his knowledge of what she was to turn into! So now, realizing this.. we understand that there is a very strong possibility that Peter has a huge connection to Lydia's abuela and possibly Meredith! But why? Well I can't say much because I am only a fan who's watching , but I'm happy to say that I am focusing on every little detail! And I would be happy just to know that I kinda knew and was on to something! Now, as for Meredith's reasoning behind all of this madness, I cannot predict that at ALL! I really would have no idea why she would want to kill ALL supernaturals.. And if she is connected to Peter in any way, it's not very smart to keep Scott on this list! We all know Peter wants to do the damage himself! So what the crap is going on? 

*screams*!! Sunday can't get here any sooner?❓❔

Sunday? Did she just say Sunday?! That's right! For all you teen wolf fans who don't know, the next episode of Teen Wolf will be aired on Sunday for the first time, the same day as the awards. They want views! So they figure if they show teen wolf beforehand, nobody will change the channel! Good to know that the world knows teen wolf is the best show on MTV! Yes! 

But wait, one more question ! WHY DID LYDIA WRITE STILES NAME???? Ugh ! My brain hurts! Maybe I'll just wait and figure this out tomorrow! Any ideas????

Well, Jeff Davis, you are the bomb diggityyy ! you totally rock , you the real MVP! Genius! 

Xoxo, RINA 

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GUYS!!!!!

Ok ok, I have finally decided to come out of the sewer I was hiding in and get back to blogging! What season is it? ...

Ugh you guys have NO idea how hard it is to keep up with your blog if you're not Perez Hilton or Necole Bitchie, lol.. Talking about the latest celeb drama or outfit ...! Or when your iPhone is constantly telling you that you somehow have no memory because all your apps have been taking up space with documents and data, so you basically have to keep deleting and reinstalling them...*sigh* yeah, It's very hard! So much has happened since my last post guys .. I'm actually in a relationship now . *yes I know, here's a box of Kleenex for our happy tears!* and I had another job and now don't .. I've had a lot of drama ... *sighs* omg! I don't know why I just don't run to my blog like I always should! But anyway before I elaborate on all these updates , I MUST post another new post about the Teen Wolf episode I just freaking watched tonight!!!!!! *SCREAMS* what the fire truck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This show is crazy! So yeah, hey beauties! I'm back again , I am going to make a promise that I will try my best to keep y'all posted and stop disappearing! Muahhh!!!!!!! Get ready for these posts ! First up, TEEN WOLF ! For all my wolf packs outchea ! This next post's just for y'all! 

TBT

I might regret posting this later kinda already regretting starting to but I found these in my drawer, and after reading them all again I feel nothing but pain. I need to vent & this is too deep to talk about out loud. and I also want y'all to see and understand why I'm always complaining about the things guys do or not finding the right one. Some of you either went through this, will go through it, never went through it or never will.. But let me elaborate on what I been through: I was told a countless number of times that when guys get "caught up" not to really believe what they tell you when they write to you or tell you on the phone .. The reason I believed was because I was in love .. I had been in love with the same person since I was 18. I was 19 and 20 writing to him and waiting. I'm now going on 21 in a few days and I'm still alone. I never really spoke to my pops about guys before, but seeing as all these letters were coming in the mail I figured I'd explain. 

He wasn't too thrilled about the fact that I was in love with someone "in the system" but he wasn't a criminal.. He's not a criminal , so I made sure I made that clear and continued to mention this boy everyday. Whenever a letter came in, my dad would ask "how's he holding up? Is he coming out?" .  My dad isn't the type to really ask, so it felt special . That plus the letters plus the fact that this is who I've wanted since I graduated high school made everything seem so real and seem like it was going to head to a great direction. Now I'm here today typing a huge essay because he's no longer there, he's here .. But not here with me. And I'm hurt. And this is all I still think about till this day. Out of all the hurt and anger I've been pushing people away, even guys that are strictly my friends. I forced myself to fall for guys that weren't good for me only to help me move on. I always think a guy is wrong when he does something or that he's doing it to try and hurt me. I'm not gonna sit here and say I blame this guy for everything because what I really blame is the fact that I stood there and waited for love. Love is not something you force yourself to wait for, it's something that comes to you. Love is not something you fight for, it's something you automatically win. And even though I am still crying over this and still hold on to these letters (even though I honestly feel like burning them), I know one day I'll find it and I won't have to sit here and cry of sadness and write essays on how much my love life sucks. And to the dude who wrote these to me, although he probably won't see this because I took him off my social networks, I still want the best for you and I don't hate YOU. I just hate this. & I hope things are going good for you. As for me, I'll be alright. This ain't no cry for attention, it's just venting..... Most likely deleting this whenever my head clears. Well, yeah..