yo.

Let me be very brutally honest... some of y'all been constantly complaining to me that I don't answer your calls or texts or text you first or this that and the third.....

First off, if you call me during the afternoon and I don't hit you up at all after and you know we're cool, I probably didn't get your call at all because of service issues..y'all know I have SPRINT ..doesn't always work very well. If not, then you called when I was working..After work I usually go straight home and I'm tired and don't really think to talk to anyone... If you text me and I don't text you back, I'm just busy dawgs.

My point is, the people that really know me know what it is. They know I'm always doing something..I don't always just sit around all day and stare at the ceiling. I'm always out, I'm always actively doing something. I use my phone to text people when I know they are going to be around, and I call people if I really have to tell them something. I don't like talking on the phone unless we really got something to talk about or if I'm fake phone cuffing..because lord knows the struggle is real out here for us single people! Bt WAIT! Sometimes I don't even feel single because I got y'all over here acting like long lost boyfriends..complaining when you see me posting on instagram..Instagram is like my photo diary. I usually post and leave like a real IG boss..and when I'm not really doing anything is when I stay on it. So yeah..stop your complaining people. Stop accusing me of acting light skin. I'm not dubbing y'all intentionally.... for the most part anyway. Let a chick breathe!

February 10th, 2014 10:05 PM

I swear, every time I listen to Frank Ocean's 'Lonny breux' I be thinking I could sing. Really really good. It's a really great song and a really great album. It puts me into thinking zone. Right now I'm sitting on the L train.. In deep thought. So I decided to take out my phone and begin typing as I was in the zone. Unfortunately, the song ended before I could even begin typing. NP: 'Rider' - Ace Hood FT. Chris Brown ... If you show me your ambitions of a riiiiiiiiiiderrrrr! Lol. Reminds me of last semester in school because it used to be my alarm tone. I miss last semester. The BEGINNING, anyway. Things were less complicated than they are now. I find myself stuck in this huge hole now it's like.. When will I ever see the darn sun? I've been seeing darkness for a while now, mostly because I brought it on myself for not taking care of myself the way I know I should and I know I could. I just.. idk. I have so many stressful distractions. Why am I looking so hard for love? Not even love .. Just the feeling of being cherished and cared about? As my mom tells me, I should already feel that way spiritually.. ya know, with God's love. But even sometimes I feel like God himself is disappointed. Idk where my mind has took its spiral but it's spun out of control and I just need it to come back to its rightful place. I need to start being more responsible and doing what I need to do to rid these distractions. But at this point.. It's so hard! I don't believe in myself the way I should .. Urgh.. See what these damn songs do to me.. Damn, Frank, you done started this all.....

Sutter Avenue next. Till next time ...

Xoxo :*

MYOB

Really? All of a sudden Karina's business is everyone's business. And no, I don't mean the business I put out here on my blog.. because the things I put on my blog are mainly just situations of how I'm generally feeling and dealing with. No names. Rarely any exact stories. Just general things. Whatever I decide to tell people in person is stuff I feel I can tell certain people because mainly I've spoken to them a lot of times before. Cool. But I learned that even THAT'S dangerous, because even the people you think you can trust be the people running their mouth telling everyone your business. I say I don't care a lot, because a lot of the times I don't. When it comes to people's opinions or what they have to say about me, I don't care. I grew not to. But when it comes to my business being a discussion amongst people who I felt I could trust, that's a bone to pick. So now  my wall just got more sturdy. I don't trust a soul but the people who have been there a WHILE. Even then there are some things I probably won't even tell them. Unfortunately life has come to be that way. There are not some, but MANY things that are better left unsaid. Thank you, reality, for bringing new life lesson to my attention. Appreciate it ..