YO

All you people crying over being single and upset cause you want to be cute like those cute couples you see out in the street, on the train, at school, instagram..wherever.. Ya'll better listen to what ya'll grandmommas always told ya and "stop all that crying"! Don't wish for something your ass ain't prepared for. Relationships are not easy.. All that sappy shit you see on the tv screens is not what it all is..and even the people in the movies got issues.. Love isn't all roses and dandelions. I don't care what anyone says, love is indeed a sacrifice. You have to sacrifice a lot just to be the best you can be for that person. Doesn't mean it's a bad thing, the idea of sacrifice should not always be negative. But it's still sacrifice, it's still difficult. Loving a whole other human being apart from yourself— learning all their 700 different emotions, their likes and dislikes, their traits.. Learning to love all those things and accept them..AND dealing with them too? That shit is a JOB. Love will put you in a whole other dimension of emotions . You will feel shit you thought a human could never feel. You will laugh till your jaw hurts or cry till your eyes dry out. You will literally go 0-100 nigga real quick, where you're happy as shit one min, then as angry as the three little pigs when the wolf kept knocking down all their damn houses the next.. And then as sad as lil Bo peep when she lost her sheep after that. And then back to square one .. All in ONE DAY! and one day of all them emotions equals months and years worth of a fucking civil war. So never rush commitment if you are not ready to handle a real fucking nuclear bomb. And If you are ready, fucking deal with what you decided to. Instead of hopping from one bed to another like Goldie locks, make shit right with who's willing to make it right with you. Be a champ! Fuck what they say because love has no rules and certainly no boundaries. All I'm saying is be prepared for it the right way, and don't fall back because you feel a tingly weird substance in your stomach because guess what, that shit is called FEELINGS. And that tingly shit is only the beginning! So be a fucking superhero and learn to take love when it is given. And learn to take your damn time!

I WROTE THIS ON ALL MY BLOGS BECAUSE I WANT PEOPLE TO REALLY FUCKING SEE REALITY! TAKE IT FROM US WHO REALLY BEEN THROUGH IT BRUH. IF U SEE THIS POST WITHOUT MY NAME, U KNO WHERE IT CAME FROM AT THIS POINT....

over and out!

TEEN WOLF (AUG 18) DONT READ IF U DONT WANT TO BE SPOILED!

I repeat , do not read if you do not want to be spoiled !!!!!

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MEREDITH IS THE BENEFACTOR!!! WHAAAAAAAAT THE F#%K!? So last night (Sunday), my cousin predicted it to be the dude that works at the mental institution .. Whatever his name was .. The Nogitsune dude..! ( yeah he also played the Nogitsune, for all you fans who didn't know)..So we stuck to that prediction because it made perfect sense. All these 'suicides' reflected on him. We predicted he obvi knew about supernaturals because he had three of them (that we knew of before tonight's episode) which were Meredith, Malia, and then Stiles back when he was supernatural . And he was always just creepy! And then when Lydia and Stiles went to Meredith for help, all of a sudden, she dies of suicide. And that creep seemed to have been present when she "died". So we figured it had to be someone nobody was really focusing on, which was him. His crazy ass! So as we're watching episode 9, we were stoked! It seemed we were right all along, this crazy creep that works at the mental institution is the freakin benefactor ..... But nooooo, wait! Dude gets shot by Parrish and was all "I don't control her she's controls me" and  Lydia's all like "omg it's not him.. He's not the benefactor"  in walks Meredith like "I AM" .. WHET??! 

That's what you call a TWIST! Jeff Davis is a freaking genius!!!!!!! But why!! Why is Meredith doing all of this? Why would she put her own name on the list? Why would she want all supernaturals deceased? What the heck supernatural is Parrish? Why did Lydia write Stiles name on that paper??????? And most importantly (to me anyway) WHAT DOES MEREDITH BEING THE BENEFACTOR HAVE TO DO WITH PETER NOT BEING ON THE LIST?

Being that I cannot elaborate on any question but that last, let me proceed to elaborate on it because I think there's a big connection there. Okay so we know Lydia got bit by Peter all the way back in the Season 1 finale. Peter was a warewolf, but Lydia turns into a banshee. Lydia's grandmother was a banshee. So it's prob a genetic thing , and prob one that her grams saw coming. Peter somehow knew to bite Lydia and knew what she would turn into , because he tells her it was his BITE that lit the spark....confirming his knowledge of what she was to turn into! So now, realizing this.. we understand that there is a very strong possibility that Peter has a huge connection to Lydia's abuela and possibly Meredith! But why? Well I can't say much because I am only a fan who's watching , but I'm happy to say that I am focusing on every little detail! And I would be happy just to know that I kinda knew and was on to something! Now, as for Meredith's reasoning behind all of this madness, I cannot predict that at ALL! I really would have no idea why she would want to kill ALL supernaturals.. And if she is connected to Peter in any way, it's not very smart to keep Scott on this list! We all know Peter wants to do the damage himself! So what the crap is going on? 

*screams*!! Sunday can't get here any sooner?❓❔

Sunday? Did she just say Sunday?! That's right! For all you teen wolf fans who don't know, the next episode of Teen Wolf will be aired on Sunday for the first time, the same day as the awards. They want views! So they figure if they show teen wolf beforehand, nobody will change the channel! Good to know that the world knows teen wolf is the best show on MTV! Yes! 

But wait, one more question ! WHY DID LYDIA WRITE STILES NAME???? Ugh ! My brain hurts! Maybe I'll just wait and figure this out tomorrow! Any ideas????

Well, Jeff Davis, you are the bomb diggityyy ! you totally rock , you the real MVP! Genius! 

Xoxo, RINA 

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GUYS!!!!!

Ok ok, I have finally decided to come out of the sewer I was hiding in and get back to blogging! What season is it? ...

Ugh you guys have NO idea how hard it is to keep up with your blog if you're not Perez Hilton or Necole Bitchie, lol.. Talking about the latest celeb drama or outfit ...! Or when your iPhone is constantly telling you that you somehow have no memory because all your apps have been taking up space with documents and data, so you basically have to keep deleting and reinstalling them...*sigh* yeah, It's very hard! So much has happened since my last post guys .. I'm actually in a relationship now . *yes I know, here's a box of Kleenex for our happy tears!* and I had another job and now don't .. I've had a lot of drama ... *sighs* omg! I don't know why I just don't run to my blog like I always should! But anyway before I elaborate on all these updates , I MUST post another new post about the Teen Wolf episode I just freaking watched tonight!!!!!! *SCREAMS* what the fire truck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This show is crazy! So yeah, hey beauties! I'm back again , I am going to make a promise that I will try my best to keep y'all posted and stop disappearing! Muahhh!!!!!!! Get ready for these posts ! First up, TEEN WOLF ! For all my wolf packs outchea ! This next post's just for y'all! 

TBT

I might regret posting this later kinda already regretting starting to but I found these in my drawer, and after reading them all again I feel nothing but pain. I need to vent & this is too deep to talk about out loud. and I also want y'all to see and understand why I'm always complaining about the things guys do or not finding the right one. Some of you either went through this, will go through it, never went through it or never will.. But let me elaborate on what I been through: I was told a countless number of times that when guys get "caught up" not to really believe what they tell you when they write to you or tell you on the phone .. The reason I believed was because I was in love .. I had been in love with the same person since I was 18. I was 19 and 20 writing to him and waiting. I'm now going on 21 in a few days and I'm still alone. I never really spoke to my pops about guys before, but seeing as all these letters were coming in the mail I figured I'd explain. 

He wasn't too thrilled about the fact that I was in love with someone "in the system" but he wasn't a criminal.. He's not a criminal , so I made sure I made that clear and continued to mention this boy everyday. Whenever a letter came in, my dad would ask "how's he holding up? Is he coming out?" .  My dad isn't the type to really ask, so it felt special . That plus the letters plus the fact that this is who I've wanted since I graduated high school made everything seem so real and seem like it was going to head to a great direction. Now I'm here today typing a huge essay because he's no longer there, he's here .. But not here with me. And I'm hurt. And this is all I still think about till this day. Out of all the hurt and anger I've been pushing people away, even guys that are strictly my friends. I forced myself to fall for guys that weren't good for me only to help me move on. I always think a guy is wrong when he does something or that he's doing it to try and hurt me. I'm not gonna sit here and say I blame this guy for everything because what I really blame is the fact that I stood there and waited for love. Love is not something you force yourself to wait for, it's something that comes to you. Love is not something you fight for, it's something you automatically win. And even though I am still crying over this and still hold on to these letters (even though I honestly feel like burning them), I know one day I'll find it and I won't have to sit here and cry of sadness and write essays on how much my love life sucks. And to the dude who wrote these to me, although he probably won't see this because I took him off my social networks, I still want the best for you and I don't hate YOU. I just hate this. & I hope things are going good for you. As for me, I'll be alright. This ain't no cry for attention, it's just venting..... Most likely deleting this whenever my head clears. Well, yeah..

yo.

Let me be very brutally honest... some of y'all been constantly complaining to me that I don't answer your calls or texts or text you first or this that and the third.....

First off, if you call me during the afternoon and I don't hit you up at all after and you know we're cool, I probably didn't get your call at all because of service issues..y'all know I have SPRINT ..doesn't always work very well. If not, then you called when I was working..After work I usually go straight home and I'm tired and don't really think to talk to anyone... If you text me and I don't text you back, I'm just busy dawgs.

My point is, the people that really know me know what it is. They know I'm always doing something..I don't always just sit around all day and stare at the ceiling. I'm always out, I'm always actively doing something. I use my phone to text people when I know they are going to be around, and I call people if I really have to tell them something. I don't like talking on the phone unless we really got something to talk about or if I'm fake phone cuffing..because lord knows the struggle is real out here for us single people! Bt WAIT! Sometimes I don't even feel single because I got y'all over here acting like long lost boyfriends..complaining when you see me posting on instagram..Instagram is like my photo diary. I usually post and leave like a real IG boss..and when I'm not really doing anything is when I stay on it. So yeah..stop your complaining people. Stop accusing me of acting light skin. I'm not dubbing y'all intentionally.... for the most part anyway. Let a chick breathe!

February 10th, 2014 10:05 PM

I swear, every time I listen to Frank Ocean's 'Lonny breux' I be thinking I could sing. Really really good. It's a really great song and a really great album. It puts me into thinking zone. Right now I'm sitting on the L train.. In deep thought. So I decided to take out my phone and begin typing as I was in the zone. Unfortunately, the song ended before I could even begin typing. NP: 'Rider' - Ace Hood FT. Chris Brown ... If you show me your ambitions of a riiiiiiiiiiderrrrr! Lol. Reminds me of last semester in school because it used to be my alarm tone. I miss last semester. The BEGINNING, anyway. Things were less complicated than they are now. I find myself stuck in this huge hole now it's like.. When will I ever see the darn sun? I've been seeing darkness for a while now, mostly because I brought it on myself for not taking care of myself the way I know I should and I know I could. I just.. idk. I have so many stressful distractions. Why am I looking so hard for love? Not even love .. Just the feeling of being cherished and cared about? As my mom tells me, I should already feel that way spiritually.. ya know, with God's love. But even sometimes I feel like God himself is disappointed. Idk where my mind has took its spiral but it's spun out of control and I just need it to come back to its rightful place. I need to start being more responsible and doing what I need to do to rid these distractions. But at this point.. It's so hard! I don't believe in myself the way I should .. Urgh.. See what these damn songs do to me.. Damn, Frank, you done started this all.....

Sutter Avenue next. Till next time ...

Xoxo :*

MYOB

Really? All of a sudden Karina's business is everyone's business. And no, I don't mean the business I put out here on my blog.. because the things I put on my blog are mainly just situations of how I'm generally feeling and dealing with. No names. Rarely any exact stories. Just general things. Whatever I decide to tell people in person is stuff I feel I can tell certain people because mainly I've spoken to them a lot of times before. Cool. But I learned that even THAT'S dangerous, because even the people you think you can trust be the people running their mouth telling everyone your business. I say I don't care a lot, because a lot of the times I don't. When it comes to people's opinions or what they have to say about me, I don't care. I grew not to. But when it comes to my business being a discussion amongst people who I felt I could trust, that's a bone to pick. So now  my wall just got more sturdy. I don't trust a soul but the people who have been there a WHILE. Even then there are some things I probably won't even tell them. Unfortunately life has come to be that way. There are not some, but MANY things that are better left unsaid. Thank you, reality, for bringing new life lesson to my attention. Appreciate it .. 

Just Come Over!!!

This really had me in tears. The crazy part is, being a female, I still REALLY felt the guy's pain and point of view. I guess people don't lie when they say I don't always act like a female lmao. But theeeeenn again, I'm still a female. And y'all sometimes confuse us with your reactions to things... but nonetheless, this was COMEDY. Definitely subscribe to these guys on the tube!

Shared Secrets 101

I often, almost always, give myself the best advice...but rarely do I take it right away...

This may cause me to seem like a lunatic, but I think I talk to myself more often than I talk to anyone else. If I tell myself a certain thing enough, I finally take heed to my words and do what I gotta do. Although I must admit, it takes a while for me to listen to even myself, causing me to get caught up very easily..buuuut when I finally listen, I definitely snap out of it without hesitation. So when people tell me they don't know how I do things so easily or so seemingly without much feeling, there's the secret. Just talk to yourself about the same subject over and over..eventually you get bored of it and then get bored of the problem. Problem solved.


That was totally rina......

Totally!

xoxo :*

Silence : Every Man's Downfall.

As a female, I crave attention. No matter how much I try to act like I don't, I do. We all do. Not the kind of attention where I have to constantly be acknowledged by everyone I know, or the "center" of attention, (SN: just to let y'all know I HATE that kind of attention.. where they always ask "are you okay?" "what's wrong" or ALL EYES ON RINA Y'ALL! ..like, no.. HATE IT!!) just the kind of attention from someone I'm interested in. If I'm talking to you, or want to get to know you, I'd expect the same kind of effort I put in to talk to you right back for me. Totally harmless. "the regarding of someone or something as interesting or important" - show me that I interest you..and if we're actually talking talking, show me how important I am to you. How? Well since I am not a complicated girl and I don't really ask for much, although it may seem like I do if I'm constantly yelling at you to do these damn SIMPLE THINGS -_-..Let me tell you how

1. Texting. If we're texting, don't let the freaking time between texts be 1 hour...2 hours...3 hours . No. Keep the conversation flowing. If you're busy, tell me you're busy and just text or call me later. SIMPLE.    
2. Calling. Call me every night. If not every night, then at least enough so that I know you think about me and want to talk to me. I prefer calls over texts any day because it's so much easier to converse. I prefer late night calls, because I like the idea of falling asleep on the phone. Not so bad, right? Cause if I'm of importance, you wouldn't have to SEE if you can call me ...
3.  Chillin'. [1] Don't make me beg you to chill. << that's it. [2] If we chillin and your home boys there..I'm the type of female to let you rock. Just as long as you acknowledge that I am in the room. Don't ignore my presence and definitely do not come up to me every 20-30+ minutes to fucking poke me or kiss me..No nigga, no... Unless you playing basketball or some shit.. even then, come up to me so I can help you wipe the sweat off your forehead or pass you your water..

That's it! Attention. That's MY attention. I don't need attention to include you constantly taking me out and buying me shit. We can stay home and watch Netflix or play GTA or 2K! If you're busy, whether it's work or school or you just plain chilling with your homeBOYS...homeBOYS...homeBOYS...homeB O Y S..No problem, let me know and I'll wait for your call later on.


Speaking of ignore...let's elaborate on that.

 YOU MEN LOVE TO IGNORE SHIT. No matter what kind of shit, there's always an ignore button being pressed. Imma need y'all to toss that remote in the garbage because that shit makes us females soooooo aggy. Just as aggy as y'all get when we begin to ignore you. Tuh, thought we ain't know? Of course we know. That's why we do it. That's called the POWER of silence. However, you men just do it just because..It's like a hobby. If we're arguing, don't ignore me. Hit me with an "I don't feel like talking to you right now" and cool. But you can't always do that, you need to find a way to squash the beef later. But I'll take anything except silence. If we're not in a relationship and we're just talking, or even if we have something going on and you know I'm into you, and I hit you up and you see it... for example...

that's just a no no. After I see that 'Read' and I don't get a response, that tells me I'm not that interesting or not very important. So automatically, I get bored of your ass. That also tells me you're ignoring me, which gets me very frustrated. Therefore, when you decide to text me later, you will experience the number one thing you males do not like..and that is my attitude. Our attitudes. The female attitude.

That brings me to my number one pet peeve in the "Talking to a Male" category...

SLOW. TEXTERS. I cannot stand y'all. Do you know how hype we get when you guys text us? We're like yaaaaassss! Baby just texted. Then it turns into this...

[11:45 AM]
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Hey.


                Hi boo!!

 [1:30 PM]
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Wyd?

                Chillen, bored :/ you? 


[4:50 PM]
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Chillen


                  Lol. [ << attitude forming ]

[10:00 pm]
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Wyd babe?

                    Nothing.


Lol, still bored?

                     Mhm.

You good?

                    Mhm..

Lol hmm, okay
whatever u say

                   Yeup.

^^^^^^^^^^

WE. HATE. THAT. SLOW. TEXTING. SHIT.

Just in case you guys always wondered why we catch an attitude "out of nowhere" ...as you can see, it isn't out of nowhere. When you text slow as hell, we're just like damn.."I must not be shit.." . Especially because we can't wait to hear from you, talk to you, tell you about our day. But you don't give us a chance because the times y'all decide to talk is the time we already have an attitude because we've been waiting for decent convo all freaking day. What's the point in asking for my number if you aren't going to text me daily, and have a real conversation? That's a waste of a contact. Waste of texting space. Waste of my time. Waste of my UNLIMITED.

Silence is DEADLY. We don't enjoy it. We hate to see that read shit and not get a text back. We hate coming out of work to not a single call or text. So here's tip number 1, fellas. If you want a female's attention. Make sure you give her all the attention she needs,so she knows she's not wasting her time. As you can see, it took me a post and not a novel to tell you guys what is really expected. Not gonna front, some females are different. Some require much more. But this above is the simple things. Simple females like me don't require much, because the things you swear we require are things we can simply retrieve on our own. Good sex isn't always going to get you far. It may catch us off guard sometimes, but once we find another distraction to throw us back on the right path, your d*ck ain't shit booboo. Do not lead us on, or else you're in for a mess. We will probaby black on your ass and then tell you to kiss our ass and get bored of you and you will no longer hear from us. Then you'll spot us with the next nigga and text us again. Who you foolin.'? Just pay ATTENTION!

Tip number 2, if you NO longer want a female's attention. LET HER KNOW. If you feel like you can't talk to her in that way anymore, LET HER KNOW. Yea, Yea, Yea .."I don't wanna hurt you." Shut up. It hurts us more to continue something that's not there. We'll have more respect for you...WAY MORE RESPECT...if you would just tell us straight up, "I can't fuck with you because I have someone" or "I don't wanna do this anymore" or "Let's be friends." SOMETHING. Give us an explanation, give us closure. It really is not that difficult. 1 out of every 10 females will probably black on you. That 1 female is the most likely the immature one that doesn't see anyone else's prospective but hers..but that's 1 female is not *I* and it isn't most of us. So, speak up men. Tell us how you feel. DON'T WASTE OUR TIME! Once again, pay attention.


xoxo :*

Thank You, little Rina.

Oh how I wish I can go back :-( I miss being that age! I was so active, did so many things. Boys didn't matter. Friends were just people I played dolls or video games with. The only work that mattered was my school work. I rarely had responsibilities. I MISS THIS :(

Looking at my young face actually motivates me. It's so weird... idk. But when I'm upset, or all in my feelings, I'd look at old pictures of the young Karina. And I'd smile, even though it saddens me that I am no longer that age, I feel like I've GROWN. It helps me look back at all that I went through and reminds me just how much I have grown and how happy I am to still be here years later, still growing. On top of that, I was freaking cute, foh! LOL


Picking my nose without a care in the world, now how's that for a throwback? >=)

...............a shared secret...................

So, in my last post, I claimed ...

Have you ever found someone that completely MATCHES you, but you can't have them? I've found myself in a position that I didn't think I would ever be in, because I am just not the type of girl to take something that isn't hers, or the type of girl to ruin someone else's happiness just to complete her own..see where I'm going with this?

Now I must say that I have some BALLS to even post something like this. Why? Because it's so easy to be judged. And people reading this can be people that know exactly what's going on...it's a very thin line being crossed. But I need to let it out, and this is the only way I know how.

It is very hard for me these days to find someone that completely matches me. Someone I can literally talk to for hours and there would never be a dull moment. Someone who can totally be my best friend and also more at the same time. Someone who makes me laugh constantly. Someone who's style matches mine. Like what? That's so hard. They say opposites attract..but that doesn't mean that 'similars' don't. And I finally met my match, but he's already met his....a while before he met me >=/ It's not right for me to even continue to feel this way having knowledge that this person is already happy, but it isn't wrong to have feelings because unfortunately God gave us the power to do many things and controlling the way we feel about one another was definitely not one of them. I guess this is me trying to open up and at the same time trying to seek an answer.. how exactly do I overcome this? Through all of this, I have found a great friend. Without losing them..how can I express the way I feel..The last thing on my mind is to risk them losing their happiness in another person in order to satisfy mine...but at the same time, I'm not trying to break up the friendship either. But when you have certain temptations...smh..I can't even explain. I know I told y'all it is very easy for me to get over someone. But this one is a tough one..because I would have to cut myself back from speaking to that person in order for me to easily get over them. But I don't think I have the heart to do that. And a new distraction will only help until I see that person again.

I WISH THERE WAS A WAY FOR ME TO CONTROL THIS SHIT -_-

I also wish there was a stronger and more explainable way for me to write this. It's like I know exactly what to say when I say it in my head..but when I go to say it or write it...all those words vanish. I don't want it to seem like I'm in love or I'm obsessed, because I'm not. I just have weird ass feelings right now that I need to get rid of for the best but they don't want to go away, and I have a feeling they'll continue to grow if I don't stop them. This is one of those "I'm smart but can't seem to find a way not to look dumb" situations -_____-. Somebody pinch me.

What's on your mind, Rina?

So for the past few months I felt myself stuck. Like, STUCK. I felt like everything is caving in, and there's no where to turn. I feel like I haven't been moving at all. I've been searching for a new job, nothing. There was a point where I felt like I wasn't going to be able to attend school for another semester due to fees. I had gotten my heart broken again and began looking for that attention in all the wrong places. I've just been feeling like NOTHING is being accomplished. I am almost 21 years old, I need some kind of motivation in order to feel free from this darkness. Like, it came to a point where I could open up to my friends about it, but I did not even want advice. Because advice at this point isn't going to help, it's just motivation. It sounds crazy and kind of demanding, but in order to feel better I just need my goals to be accomplished -  no matter what mental therapy I use to ease the feeling in the moment.

Well, I do have some good news. I am attending my spring semester at BMCC. A nice friend helped me find someone who helped me come up with a great solution in order to deal with all these darn tuition fees. Not sure why it feels so important for me to go, but I could have cried in this counselor's arms after he helped me! And I just had the biggest smile on my face while getting advised and while registering at home. I just love the experience of being and college and I like that I have something important keeping me occupied. I like the idea of me working hard and all of it paying off. So I guess I just answered my own question as to why it is so important to go. *giggles*

So I guess that's step one. Already, I feel a little lighter. This is what I mean by motivation being the answer. I just need a few things to reassure myself that I am not living for no reason, and that there is a brighter side to the tunnel.  (not even trying to sound scarily depressed, just the honest truth, lol)

I just need a new job now. My current one just stresses me out so much and I feel like I am STUUUUUCK there. I try to go there and be happy and remain positive, but it's so hard when you have bosses that are so disrespectful. And it's just hard when you're working somewhere just because you have to..and have no interest in it whatsoever. ( hopefully my bosses never see this as long as I am working there LOL ) I AM CRYING FOR A NEW JOB UGH. At least an office job until I find something I really like...which is both a hobby and a career. I know God hears me, so faith is all I can depend on!

And then there's that annoying word.. "love". What do you call my love life? A disaster. I feel that due to my life's history with family and what not, I just look for this damn thing in all the wrong places. ALL THE INCREDIBLY WRONG, DISASTROUS, HOPELESS PLACES. Every time I find someone who I really SEE myself with, I automatically fall. Idk why I always allow these dudes to really mess me up. I know I'm smart, I'm not dumb. I mean I do and have done some dumb things, but I am not DUMB. I know what's right, I know what's wrong. So why is it so hard NOT to look dumb, when I know I am smart enough to look myself..which is smart..make sense? Omg my mind is all over the place lol. This is part of what love does. It completely takes over. Now, I'm not going to sit here and say I fell in love with every person I've spoken too. Because that's totally not true. Guys in general drive me crazy. I hate the ones that never tell you how they feel or how they think. They expect you to either know already, or they expect you NOT to understand them, therefore will never give you a chance to try. I will never understand why guys can never be straight up. And THEN there are the ones who are straight up but my stupid temptations get me into a lot of trouble and I always end up hurt either way. I guess I just want someone to be by my side. Someone to give me that attention I've always wanted but never got. Someone I can always talk to. Someone who likes what I like. Someone who loves everything or ALMOST everything about me. Someone who doesn't judge me.. Someone who just MATCHES me. Some of the guys I've talked to will like half the things about me, but also judge another half. Some of em just like me for my treasures.....ahem...! And others will like me, but have issues of their own that I can't freaking deal with. Why? Because when I try, they don't allow it or they're just too freaking difficult for my ass and I end up getting bored. That is actually one thing I like about myself. I can get over someone pretty freaking quickly. I'll either get bored as shit, which is very easy for a Taurus gal like myself, or I'll just easily find a distraction. 9 times out of 10, you losers come crawling back once that happens, only for your attempt to be denied :-) - another great thing about me, lol. But I don't want that anymore. I want to meet someone I can keep. Even if it doesn't happen,I want to be able to see myself spending my life with them. Yes I am young, but I am also too old for a teenage relationship. You know, the ones where they are just "in the moment" relationship, because you'll be in love with someone else in a month or two. I'm not a kid anymore..it's time for me to settle down. I'm just tired of falling into the wrong arms :/

So, yeah. There's a lot on my mind...told you guys to brace yourselves....

it doesn't even stop here.......

Ready...Set...

Now, here's where things get deep. I always post about my days with my friends, or something about a celebrity, or whatever. But rarely do I post things about what is going on in my mind, or what I'm going through on a daily basis. And isn't that what blogging is supposed to be for? So. Karina, tell us, what is on your mind?

First of all,"What's on your mind?" is the scariest question someone could ask me. Once you enter the first door, you will find yourself in De Ja Vu, because you will be opening door after door after door. My mind is a scary place. That is mainly why I'm not one to constantly talk about what's truely on it. But heck, the more I keep things bottled in, the more I find myself going crazy. So I have to take my thoughts elsewhere.

So this year, my blog isn't only going to be about the exciting things I do or celebrity info, it's going to be a lot about me and my thoughts..as it should have been from jump, I guess. And I am going to start with that today... so... here goes nothing .....brace yourselves....

Out With The Old, In With The New!

First and foremost, happy freaking 2014!!!!! I am soooo greatful for surviving another year of this roller coaster called life. I am greatful to have shared it with the friends I've known forever, the best friends..and the new friends I've made this year! Y'all definitely rock my world!

 

 >> To everyone in these pictures above, I love each and every one of you guys and I am so happy I met all of you. Thanks for making my year special and I hope to experience another great one with you guys! :-)<<

And, well, idk about y'all, but my New Years celebration was definitely a nice way to end crazy ass 2013. I spent it with the most amazing friends ever, ones I've known for years; my BFFs and their friends. & We All looked so FAB! Peep us!

LOL, we thought we were so cute. I don't even remember what we drank but I know Patron was involved. Patron is always my "think I'm cute" drink! *Giggles* I really love my friends with a passion, we definitely had a night to remember!

As for my New Years resolution, all I want to do is be successful. I have many goals I still need to accomplish, and I know I am getting really close! I have no doubt in my mind that 2014 is going to be the "takeover" , the year of success. & I definitely cannot wait to experience it. I wish you all a splendid new year and I am very appreciative of the people taking the new ride with me!

                                                 xoxo :*

HIIIIIII

I know I know, Karina is slacking like always. It's hard to deal with stuff and then try to keep up with blogging, but blogging is actually going to help me relax my mind. SO, I promise, no more slacking!!

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