Just Come Over!!!

This really had me in tears. The crazy part is, being a female, I still REALLY felt the guy's pain and point of view. I guess people don't lie when they say I don't always act like a female lmao. But theeeeenn again, I'm still a female. And y'all sometimes confuse us with your reactions to things... but nonetheless, this was COMEDY. Definitely subscribe to these guys on the tube!

Shared Secrets 101

I often, almost always, give myself the best advice...but rarely do I take it right away...

This may cause me to seem like a lunatic, but I think I talk to myself more often than I talk to anyone else. If I tell myself a certain thing enough, I finally take heed to my words and do what I gotta do. Although I must admit, it takes a while for me to listen to even myself, causing me to get caught up very easily..buuuut when I finally listen, I definitely snap out of it without hesitation. So when people tell me they don't know how I do things so easily or so seemingly without much feeling, there's the secret. Just talk to yourself about the same subject over and over..eventually you get bored of it and then get bored of the problem. Problem solved.


That was totally rina......

Totally!

xoxo :*

Silence : Every Man's Downfall.

As a female, I crave attention. No matter how much I try to act like I don't, I do. We all do. Not the kind of attention where I have to constantly be acknowledged by everyone I know, or the "center" of attention, (SN: just to let y'all know I HATE that kind of attention.. where they always ask "are you okay?" "what's wrong" or ALL EYES ON RINA Y'ALL! ..like, no.. HATE IT!!) just the kind of attention from someone I'm interested in. If I'm talking to you, or want to get to know you, I'd expect the same kind of effort I put in to talk to you right back for me. Totally harmless. "the regarding of someone or something as interesting or important" - show me that I interest you..and if we're actually talking talking, show me how important I am to you. How? Well since I am not a complicated girl and I don't really ask for much, although it may seem like I do if I'm constantly yelling at you to do these damn SIMPLE THINGS -_-..Let me tell you how

1. Texting. If we're texting, don't let the freaking time between texts be 1 hour...2 hours...3 hours . No. Keep the conversation flowing. If you're busy, tell me you're busy and just text or call me later. SIMPLE.    
2. Calling. Call me every night. If not every night, then at least enough so that I know you think about me and want to talk to me. I prefer calls over texts any day because it's so much easier to converse. I prefer late night calls, because I like the idea of falling asleep on the phone. Not so bad, right? Cause if I'm of importance, you wouldn't have to SEE if you can call me ...
3.  Chillin'. [1] Don't make me beg you to chill. << that's it. [2] If we chillin and your home boys there..I'm the type of female to let you rock. Just as long as you acknowledge that I am in the room. Don't ignore my presence and definitely do not come up to me every 20-30+ minutes to fucking poke me or kiss me..No nigga, no... Unless you playing basketball or some shit.. even then, come up to me so I can help you wipe the sweat off your forehead or pass you your water..

That's it! Attention. That's MY attention. I don't need attention to include you constantly taking me out and buying me shit. We can stay home and watch Netflix or play GTA or 2K! If you're busy, whether it's work or school or you just plain chilling with your homeBOYS...homeBOYS...homeBOYS...homeB O Y S..No problem, let me know and I'll wait for your call later on.


Speaking of ignore...let's elaborate on that.

 YOU MEN LOVE TO IGNORE SHIT. No matter what kind of shit, there's always an ignore button being pressed. Imma need y'all to toss that remote in the garbage because that shit makes us females soooooo aggy. Just as aggy as y'all get when we begin to ignore you. Tuh, thought we ain't know? Of course we know. That's why we do it. That's called the POWER of silence. However, you men just do it just because..It's like a hobby. If we're arguing, don't ignore me. Hit me with an "I don't feel like talking to you right now" and cool. But you can't always do that, you need to find a way to squash the beef later. But I'll take anything except silence. If we're not in a relationship and we're just talking, or even if we have something going on and you know I'm into you, and I hit you up and you see it... for example...

that's just a no no. After I see that 'Read' and I don't get a response, that tells me I'm not that interesting or not very important. So automatically, I get bored of your ass. That also tells me you're ignoring me, which gets me very frustrated. Therefore, when you decide to text me later, you will experience the number one thing you males do not like..and that is my attitude. Our attitudes. The female attitude.

That brings me to my number one pet peeve in the "Talking to a Male" category...

SLOW. TEXTERS. I cannot stand y'all. Do you know how hype we get when you guys text us? We're like yaaaaassss! Baby just texted. Then it turns into this...

[11:45 AM]
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Hey.


                Hi boo!!

 [1:30 PM]
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Wyd?

                Chillen, bored :/ you? 


[4:50 PM]
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Chillen


                  Lol. [ << attitude forming ]

[10:00 pm]
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Wyd babe?

                    Nothing.


Lol, still bored?

                     Mhm.

You good?

                    Mhm..

Lol hmm, okay
whatever u say

                   Yeup.

^^^^^^^^^^

WE. HATE. THAT. SLOW. TEXTING. SHIT.

Just in case you guys always wondered why we catch an attitude "out of nowhere" ...as you can see, it isn't out of nowhere. When you text slow as hell, we're just like damn.."I must not be shit.." . Especially because we can't wait to hear from you, talk to you, tell you about our day. But you don't give us a chance because the times y'all decide to talk is the time we already have an attitude because we've been waiting for decent convo all freaking day. What's the point in asking for my number if you aren't going to text me daily, and have a real conversation? That's a waste of a contact. Waste of texting space. Waste of my time. Waste of my UNLIMITED.

Silence is DEADLY. We don't enjoy it. We hate to see that read shit and not get a text back. We hate coming out of work to not a single call or text. So here's tip number 1, fellas. If you want a female's attention. Make sure you give her all the attention she needs,so she knows she's not wasting her time. As you can see, it took me a post and not a novel to tell you guys what is really expected. Not gonna front, some females are different. Some require much more. But this above is the simple things. Simple females like me don't require much, because the things you swear we require are things we can simply retrieve on our own. Good sex isn't always going to get you far. It may catch us off guard sometimes, but once we find another distraction to throw us back on the right path, your d*ck ain't shit booboo. Do not lead us on, or else you're in for a mess. We will probaby black on your ass and then tell you to kiss our ass and get bored of you and you will no longer hear from us. Then you'll spot us with the next nigga and text us again. Who you foolin.'? Just pay ATTENTION!

Tip number 2, if you NO longer want a female's attention. LET HER KNOW. If you feel like you can't talk to her in that way anymore, LET HER KNOW. Yea, Yea, Yea .."I don't wanna hurt you." Shut up. It hurts us more to continue something that's not there. We'll have more respect for you...WAY MORE RESPECT...if you would just tell us straight up, "I can't fuck with you because I have someone" or "I don't wanna do this anymore" or "Let's be friends." SOMETHING. Give us an explanation, give us closure. It really is not that difficult. 1 out of every 10 females will probably black on you. That 1 female is the most likely the immature one that doesn't see anyone else's prospective but hers..but that's 1 female is not *I* and it isn't most of us. So, speak up men. Tell us how you feel. DON'T WASTE OUR TIME! Once again, pay attention.


xoxo :*

Thank You, little Rina.

Oh how I wish I can go back :-( I miss being that age! I was so active, did so many things. Boys didn't matter. Friends were just people I played dolls or video games with. The only work that mattered was my school work. I rarely had responsibilities. I MISS THIS :(

Looking at my young face actually motivates me. It's so weird... idk. But when I'm upset, or all in my feelings, I'd look at old pictures of the young Karina. And I'd smile, even though it saddens me that I am no longer that age, I feel like I've GROWN. It helps me look back at all that I went through and reminds me just how much I have grown and how happy I am to still be here years later, still growing. On top of that, I was freaking cute, foh! LOL


Picking my nose without a care in the world, now how's that for a throwback? >=)

...............a shared secret...................

So, in my last post, I claimed ...

Have you ever found someone that completely MATCHES you, but you can't have them? I've found myself in a position that I didn't think I would ever be in, because I am just not the type of girl to take something that isn't hers, or the type of girl to ruin someone else's happiness just to complete her own..see where I'm going with this?

Now I must say that I have some BALLS to even post something like this. Why? Because it's so easy to be judged. And people reading this can be people that know exactly what's going on...it's a very thin line being crossed. But I need to let it out, and this is the only way I know how.

It is very hard for me these days to find someone that completely matches me. Someone I can literally talk to for hours and there would never be a dull moment. Someone who can totally be my best friend and also more at the same time. Someone who makes me laugh constantly. Someone who's style matches mine. Like what? That's so hard. They say opposites attract..but that doesn't mean that 'similars' don't. And I finally met my match, but he's already met his....a while before he met me >=/ It's not right for me to even continue to feel this way having knowledge that this person is already happy, but it isn't wrong to have feelings because unfortunately God gave us the power to do many things and controlling the way we feel about one another was definitely not one of them. I guess this is me trying to open up and at the same time trying to seek an answer.. how exactly do I overcome this? Through all of this, I have found a great friend. Without losing them..how can I express the way I feel..The last thing on my mind is to risk them losing their happiness in another person in order to satisfy mine...but at the same time, I'm not trying to break up the friendship either. But when you have certain temptations...smh..I can't even explain. I know I told y'all it is very easy for me to get over someone. But this one is a tough one..because I would have to cut myself back from speaking to that person in order for me to easily get over them. But I don't think I have the heart to do that. And a new distraction will only help until I see that person again.

I WISH THERE WAS A WAY FOR ME TO CONTROL THIS SHIT -_-

I also wish there was a stronger and more explainable way for me to write this. It's like I know exactly what to say when I say it in my head..but when I go to say it or write it...all those words vanish. I don't want it to seem like I'm in love or I'm obsessed, because I'm not. I just have weird ass feelings right now that I need to get rid of for the best but they don't want to go away, and I have a feeling they'll continue to grow if I don't stop them. This is one of those "I'm smart but can't seem to find a way not to look dumb" situations -_____-. Somebody pinch me.

What's on your mind, Rina?

So for the past few months I felt myself stuck. Like, STUCK. I felt like everything is caving in, and there's no where to turn. I feel like I haven't been moving at all. I've been searching for a new job, nothing. There was a point where I felt like I wasn't going to be able to attend school for another semester due to fees. I had gotten my heart broken again and began looking for that attention in all the wrong places. I've just been feeling like NOTHING is being accomplished. I am almost 21 years old, I need some kind of motivation in order to feel free from this darkness. Like, it came to a point where I could open up to my friends about it, but I did not even want advice. Because advice at this point isn't going to help, it's just motivation. It sounds crazy and kind of demanding, but in order to feel better I just need my goals to be accomplished -  no matter what mental therapy I use to ease the feeling in the moment.

Well, I do have some good news. I am attending my spring semester at BMCC. A nice friend helped me find someone who helped me come up with a great solution in order to deal with all these darn tuition fees. Not sure why it feels so important for me to go, but I could have cried in this counselor's arms after he helped me! And I just had the biggest smile on my face while getting advised and while registering at home. I just love the experience of being and college and I like that I have something important keeping me occupied. I like the idea of me working hard and all of it paying off. So I guess I just answered my own question as to why it is so important to go. *giggles*

So I guess that's step one. Already, I feel a little lighter. This is what I mean by motivation being the answer. I just need a few things to reassure myself that I am not living for no reason, and that there is a brighter side to the tunnel.  (not even trying to sound scarily depressed, just the honest truth, lol)

I just need a new job now. My current one just stresses me out so much and I feel like I am STUUUUUCK there. I try to go there and be happy and remain positive, but it's so hard when you have bosses that are so disrespectful. And it's just hard when you're working somewhere just because you have to..and have no interest in it whatsoever. ( hopefully my bosses never see this as long as I am working there LOL ) I AM CRYING FOR A NEW JOB UGH. At least an office job until I find something I really like...which is both a hobby and a career. I know God hears me, so faith is all I can depend on!

And then there's that annoying word.. "love". What do you call my love life? A disaster. I feel that due to my life's history with family and what not, I just look for this damn thing in all the wrong places. ALL THE INCREDIBLY WRONG, DISASTROUS, HOPELESS PLACES. Every time I find someone who I really SEE myself with, I automatically fall. Idk why I always allow these dudes to really mess me up. I know I'm smart, I'm not dumb. I mean I do and have done some dumb things, but I am not DUMB. I know what's right, I know what's wrong. So why is it so hard NOT to look dumb, when I know I am smart enough to look myself..which is smart..make sense? Omg my mind is all over the place lol. This is part of what love does. It completely takes over. Now, I'm not going to sit here and say I fell in love with every person I've spoken too. Because that's totally not true. Guys in general drive me crazy. I hate the ones that never tell you how they feel or how they think. They expect you to either know already, or they expect you NOT to understand them, therefore will never give you a chance to try. I will never understand why guys can never be straight up. And THEN there are the ones who are straight up but my stupid temptations get me into a lot of trouble and I always end up hurt either way. I guess I just want someone to be by my side. Someone to give me that attention I've always wanted but never got. Someone I can always talk to. Someone who likes what I like. Someone who loves everything or ALMOST everything about me. Someone who doesn't judge me.. Someone who just MATCHES me. Some of the guys I've talked to will like half the things about me, but also judge another half. Some of em just like me for my treasures.....ahem...! And others will like me, but have issues of their own that I can't freaking deal with. Why? Because when I try, they don't allow it or they're just too freaking difficult for my ass and I end up getting bored. That is actually one thing I like about myself. I can get over someone pretty freaking quickly. I'll either get bored as shit, which is very easy for a Taurus gal like myself, or I'll just easily find a distraction. 9 times out of 10, you losers come crawling back once that happens, only for your attempt to be denied :-) - another great thing about me, lol. But I don't want that anymore. I want to meet someone I can keep. Even if it doesn't happen,I want to be able to see myself spending my life with them. Yes I am young, but I am also too old for a teenage relationship. You know, the ones where they are just "in the moment" relationship, because you'll be in love with someone else in a month or two. I'm not a kid anymore..it's time for me to settle down. I'm just tired of falling into the wrong arms :/

So, yeah. There's a lot on my mind...told you guys to brace yourselves....

it doesn't even stop here.......

Ready...Set...

Now, here's where things get deep. I always post about my days with my friends, or something about a celebrity, or whatever. But rarely do I post things about what is going on in my mind, or what I'm going through on a daily basis. And isn't that what blogging is supposed to be for? So. Karina, tell us, what is on your mind?

First of all,"What's on your mind?" is the scariest question someone could ask me. Once you enter the first door, you will find yourself in De Ja Vu, because you will be opening door after door after door. My mind is a scary place. That is mainly why I'm not one to constantly talk about what's truely on it. But heck, the more I keep things bottled in, the more I find myself going crazy. So I have to take my thoughts elsewhere.

So this year, my blog isn't only going to be about the exciting things I do or celebrity info, it's going to be a lot about me and my thoughts..as it should have been from jump, I guess. And I am going to start with that today... so... here goes nothing .....brace yourselves....

Out With The Old, In With The New!

First and foremost, happy freaking 2014!!!!! I am soooo greatful for surviving another year of this roller coaster called life. I am greatful to have shared it with the friends I've known forever, the best friends..and the new friends I've made this year! Y'all definitely rock my world!

 

 >> To everyone in these pictures above, I love each and every one of you guys and I am so happy I met all of you. Thanks for making my year special and I hope to experience another great one with you guys! :-)<<

And, well, idk about y'all, but my New Years celebration was definitely a nice way to end crazy ass 2013. I spent it with the most amazing friends ever, ones I've known for years; my BFFs and their friends. & We All looked so FAB! Peep us!

LOL, we thought we were so cute. I don't even remember what we drank but I know Patron was involved. Patron is always my "think I'm cute" drink! *Giggles* I really love my friends with a passion, we definitely had a night to remember!

As for my New Years resolution, all I want to do is be successful. I have many goals I still need to accomplish, and I know I am getting really close! I have no doubt in my mind that 2014 is going to be the "takeover" , the year of success. & I definitely cannot wait to experience it. I wish you all a splendid new year and I am very appreciative of the people taking the new ride with me!

                                                 xoxo :*

HIIIIIII

I know I know, Karina is slacking like always. It's hard to deal with stuff and then try to keep up with blogging, but blogging is actually going to help me relax my mind. SO, I promise, no more slacking!!

I am about to spam post, so be prepared!!

<3