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I am going to look into the full story of Chris Brown before I make a video about the situation...

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GUESS WHOSE IT ISSSSS.....GUESS WHOSE IT IS GUESS WHOSE IT ISSSSSSSS..

IT'S YOOOOOOOOOOOOURSSSSS!

Hey peeps! What's been up!? So unfortunately I didn't get to go see The Weeknd at Radio City -_- But my mission is to go see DRIZZY! LIKE I HAVE TO! I listen to NWTS every single day, especially when I'm traveling. It's a MUST-LISTEN-TO kinda thing whenever I take the train. I need to turn up and see his ass on stage and I need to be close enough to make eye contact! I will not buy a ticket to go see him and end up sitting in the sky and shit. Them upper seats in Barclays aren't even part of the Arena in my book, just sky seats.

THIS VIDEO ON THE SIDE IS LIKE THE FULL VERSION TO A VIDEO I HAD UPLOADED ON INSTAGRAM TURNING UP BY MYSELF DANCING TO "OWN IT" . ONE OF MY FAVSSSS ON NWTS!  IF HE SINGS THAT AT THE CONCERT IMMA BE LIT IDC.
I'm ready for the #TURNUP!!! I just need to be blessed with enough money because I just spent my life on hair! This head is more important than anything in life right now. If I'm going to go see Drake my hair can't look fresh out the swamp, it gotta look cute.



^ That was >>Shantel<< speaking. lol. That's my ratchet alter ego. She doesn't follow me to school or work unless she feels she should pop up. She might appear on the Bad Girls Club soon. ;-)

Any who, I'm stressed! I've been going through way too much these past couple of months I just wanna SCREAM! I need a VACATION but since I can't have that anytime soon I just want a month full of fun shit to get my mind off of relationships, school, and work. Any ideas?

Spent all night editing the layout of this thing, knowing damn well I have school in the morning. I HATE MYSELF SOMETIMES! Such a procrastinator. At least I spent my Sunday relaxing at home. I needed a day to myself. Way to much going on in mind and in my life. I feel like I never have free time anymore. It's just work and school 24/7. I am ALWAYS tired. I can't even study sometimes :( *screams* I'm too lazy to continue this post...................
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How Much Time Is This N*gga Spendin On An Intro...

I love this sooooong. ENJOY

WEEKND FEVER

I am a HUGE fan of Abel Tesfaye ( the Weeknd) and I seriously need some tickets to go see him at Radio City Music Hall !!! WHO DARES TO COME? lol

I will go by my damn self though... I hear he's signing CD's afterward. Sounds like such a hassle, but he promised this on his twitter. So my psychotic ass will pull that tweet out and hold it up as he's singing to remind him I will be waiting... lol.. >:D *Future Wife to-do lists*

But as a future wife I've already failed my duties, I haven't listened to the city yet..oops...!

On that note, TTFN!

Nothing Was The Same

                                              Drake that type of nigga that....

would make a fucking AMAZING ass album that will be played worldwide and liked by all the fans AND people who claim they hate him..what is there not to like about this album?

All the songs on this shit are hard! My Favorite songs are "Come Thru", "Wu-tang Forever", and "Too Much" .. even his intro song was LIT. I'm obsessed. I've been listening to it at home and on the go, in order and on repeat. Way to go, DRIZZY!

People hate on Drake because they feel he's too soft. But he does what most of you men are too afraid to do - be out and open about your emotions. Men think that being hard and shit makes you more of a man then talking about      what hurts you and expressing it. But I know for a fact you all go through the types of emotions this man goes through, and y'all n*ggas secretly cry and write about it in your rooms.. I'll wait....

STOP HATING ON MY MANS !! lol . LISTEN TO THIS SHIT! FOR REAL! Matter fact, I'm putting all his songs on my music player, not in order or at once, but they will all be there. YOLO!

TEEN CHOICE AWARDS

SCREW THE WHOLE BEGINNING TO THE TCA.
CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT LEA MICHELE!? AND HER BRAVE SPEECH ABOUT CORY!!!!

This female made me SO proud to be a Gleek! I swear! When I had seen them all on the stage I was like uhhh, where's LEA? And then they introduced her as Winning Female Comedic Actress or whatever it was ( I didn't really care ) and then......THERE.... IN her cute little hot pink, high-waisted skirt...or full dress with a flowy skirt look at the bottom.....stood LEA MICHELE..Brave, courageous, strong..head up... in tears but that's OK...mouthing a very difficult speech about her beloved deceased boyfriend Cory Monteith :-'''''( our ANGEL. And she had her 'Cory' necklace on!!! She's so cute.

PEEP THE VID!

*TEARS* She is so cute man. I am so proud of her and so proud of the cast and crew of Glee. So proud!

She recently posted a picture on twitter with her "Finn" necklace on.

Just by looking at the collars of the shirt we know she's on set! Which means they've probably finished the tribute episode :/ I am totally scared to watch it. I need two boxes of Kleenex :-( yes TWO. MEH!

LOVE YOU CORY!

hey!

Haven't posted for a bit, been really busy rolling Burritos -_- I HATE CHIPOTLE!!

I LOVE eating it, but working there is TRASH. I just do not want to be in the food business anymore. I am not fit for that... I am ADMINISTRATIVE/RECEPTIONIST material. Nothing would be better right now than a job where I can sit my a$$ down at a desk and type all day, be on the phone, and file paperwork all while looking cute. At least my nails will be done and they will LAST -_- I'm cute. I deserve a desk job! Tuh!

Aside from that, my next college semester starts Wednesday. I was excited until now because BMCC needs to get their shit together. It's like they hate me. They don't want me to attend :-( Every time I go they give me the run around. "oh you still owe money from last semester's tuition." *pays* "oh, your account is blocked from registry because our computers are slow and old as hell and the payment hasn't been shown yet." *blockage removed* "oops, you took too long to register and now your most important classes are closed."

B*TCHES!?. YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME. JUST LET ME REGISTER AND ATTEND THE DAMN SCHOOL. LIKE.. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO REGISTER SINCE MAY.

Ugh. Meanwhile, everyone else is all scheduled and ready.

Whatever! I need to get this hair done though. Should I weave it yet or nah? My hair got enough air. I wanna be ratchet and go back to my crazy hair styles. I'm thinkin cyan-greenish tips. What y'all thinkin?? Weave or clips? We got 2 weeks to figure it out... Let the thinking process begin!

Lying safe with you..

Have you ever fell asleep with that one person for the first time, and then found yourself not being able to sleep without them afterwards? Lately I haven't been able to sleep at night. I thought it was because of my stress..it may be that too..but I know that if I was laying next to him all that stress would go away. I don't want to feel too clingy but as I always say (well as I've STARTED to always say) feelings have NO rules. You're allowed to feel how you feel whenever you feel it (does that make sense?). Some people don't like to rush the feeling, some people can't help it.

When young people say they're in love and people sit and tell them "Oh please, you're too young to know what love is!" I feel like it's not entirely true. Yes, at a young age they don't really know absolutely everything because they have yet to experience a whole lot more. But that's my point.. There are a whole LOT of doors to open when it comes to love. That's why people always feel different when they meet a new love. As you get older, you open more doors. You find out that there is more to love than what you've had in the past and that's what makes it all so special. We've all heard or even said the saying "I feel like I've fallen in love with you all over again.." What do you think that means? It means you've just opened a new door. It does not matter how old you are, there will always be a new door waiting for you to open. It can be with the same person for years, or a different person.

Now, I'm not writing all of this to tell you guys I'm in love. I know I'm not yet and that's because I'm still afraid. Being in love with somebody is knocking those walls down and not being afraid to let someone else take the wheel. However, I can say that I am attached. I think about him all the time. I always want to talk to him. I can't sleep alone at night because I now know what it feels like to sleep next to him. But at the same time, I am still afraid. I have experienced so many heart breaks and dealt with many difficult situations and have ended up alone every time. I don't want to let it happen again. I'm trying though. At least I know I'm not being timed.

 As for the stress – I feel like I'm at that age where I'm seriously WONDERING about my future. My career, my living situation, my love life apparently.. I'm 20 years old..still YOUNG..but then again still an adult. I guess I still have until I graduate college to really start to worry? lol. But it doesn't hurt to wonder. Then again, it literally does HURT. I get so emotional sometimes. I'm anxious to have a great career and to be able to finally be happy and do things I've always dreamed of doing. I see so many people do it at a young age and I have so much ambition to just be where they're at! It doesn't come easy, but I don't even know where to begin! UGH *SCREAMS*

till next time...

xoxo, Gossip Girl .



JK. ( I've been re-watching GG, its catchy really. )

Edited this a few weeks ago. They're so DREAMY <3.<3

 Brian'ye :*

LAST NIGHT...

Okay, so yesterday was a rainy day..what was supposed to be a backyard barbeque turned into a basement extravaganza!

trouble in paradise

Went to Nour(tweetfkingtweet on twitter)'s boo's house and got freaking LOOSE. Not even loose. I died :-(

US. ME b4 the storm lmao.

lmao :P

lmao the new homie Steven!

I started off drinking a Bud Light Lime, then came the Grey Goose. Took a couple of shots of that ..then drank another beer. For some odd reason, I didn't feel drunk..so I took another shot. I kept telling myself "Rina, wtf you ain't feelin it yet girl" even though at some point I knew I was tipsy. So in comes the Patron!! I can't even tell you how many shots of that I took, because after the first two, all hell done broke loose. I remember drinking a wine cooler and yet another beer in between shots.

us & Milo!

Me and my [fake] boo Kody! I was GONE here.

Then I remember beginning to smoke a hookah, and after that second puff I felt SICK. Ran to the bathroom and threw up my freaking soul. I swear I left that sh*t[my soul] on the bathroom floor. I don't even remember half the sh*t that went on after that! I just remember being on the couch at one point, and then in the car, and then knocked out in my room.



This morning I felt TERRIBLE. I got home pretty early, like 1-2 ish in the morn. But I woke up at 5AM and felt I had to throw up again..But I didn't. I did , however, pour myself a glass of water and passed out on the floor for like 30 mins..Then went right back on my bed. I woke up again at like 8..then again at 9...I believe I stayed awake when I woke up at 10. My little cousin was at my rescue. She got me a wet cloth to put on my head and some Alleve! Then Dad made me some soup. I am SO lucky to have those two lol..I SWEAR. But I felt sooooo sick. I couldn't throw up anymore but my tummy kept playing tricks on me man. I was watching "Pitch Perfect" (really cool movie btw) for the first time with my cousin, but we kept pausing it cause I kept running to the toilet to puke. Only, each time was a false alarm -_-


As I started getting ready for work I started to feel better. Thank God I had work at 4! Gave me enough time to chill the hell out and get ready normally. I was totally better by the time I got on the bus. BUT when I got to work and smelled that Patron...SMHHHHHHH! I work at Chipotle and yes they have Patron there. They use it to make Margaritas! I couldn't stand the smell UGH it was ridiculous. AND I was definitely not with it today when everyone kept calling my name. I felt like everyone was LOUD and annoying omg. LMAO. Too much! Once 9 hit I was happy to gtfo there. Ate some food, grabbed my check and did the DIP. Now I'm home chillen, typing this story. YUPPP that was my thursday-friday. I don't wanna drink for a week. I can't! AND I'm supposed to go to a BBQ tomorrow -_- We'll just have to see about THAT!








BTWBTWBTW!! OUR I [HEART] FINN NECKLACES CAME TODAY! I LOVE! #TEAMFINNHUDSON #LONGLIVEFINNHUDSON #RIPCORYMONTEITH #GLEEK4LIFE <3

Cory Monteith

He's the picture in my header .. :-*

Cory Allan Michael Monteith (May 11, 1982 – July 13, 2013) was a Canadian actor and musician, known for his role as Finn Hudson on the Fox television series Glee. Born in Calgary, Alberta, Canada, and raised in Victoria, British Columbia, Canada, Monteith had a troubled adolescence involving substance abuse from age 12, and he left school at 16. After an intervention by family and friends, he entered drug rehabilitation at age 19, and began rebuilding his life.

As an actor based in Vancouver, he had minor roles on such television series as Stargate Atlantis and Smallville before an audition tape of him singing "Can't Fight This Feeling" helped to land him the biggest role of his career, Finn on Glee. This introduced him to an international audience as a high school quarterback who is at first reluctant to join the high school singing club. In later seasons, the character had graduated but returned as a singing coach. Following his success on Glee, Monteith's film work included the movie Monte Carlo and a starring role in Sisters & Brothers. In an interview with Parade magazine in 2011, he discussed his history of substance abuse as a teen, and in March 2013, he again sought treatment for addiction. In July 2013, he died of a toxic combination of heroin and alcohol in a Vancouver hotel room.

^^^ Stole that from Wiki, just a brief description of who he was for the people that didn't know. Truth is no one can really DESCRIBE who Cory was in writing. If you knew him or were lucky enough to meet him, you'd just KNOW. Or if you're like me, a person who didn't get a chance to be that lucky, you'd watch a million and one interviews and home videos on Youtube, you'd watch every season of Glee almost every week..then ..you'd just know. He was one of my FAVORITE characters on the show. I fell in LOVE lol! He was such a heart warming, loving, caring character. And from what I've watched - the interviews from him and his other cast mates and people who knew him, he wasn't much different from his Finn character. That just makes you love him even more.

When I first found out the news that he had passed, I thought it was a joke. I was at a get together at my BFF's house getting a little LOOSE lol. I was on my phone for a few, scrolling on my instagram feed and then I came across this random post. Some girl had posted this picture of Cory [Finn] and the caption said something like "OMG R.I.P CORY!" .. I was just like...whut?? Nah. Who would even joke around like that..so not funny! Then I read a comment and it said "his press stated it's a hoax. he's alive" The relief!! I had to get off my phone STAT. 

When I came home that night, I was greeted by my cousin in the worst way. She goes "Rina..I have some bad news...sad news..Cory Monteith died.." I looked at her and said "Nah, it was fake I read it." And she goes "What!? How could they do that to me, I was dying just now.." She then ran on the computer and did some research and was like "But it's on CNN and everything Rina.." I'm like NO. She's like "His press confirmed it. An officer confirmed it" I ran to my laptop and did research on my own....I read...and there it was. "Cory Monteith found dead in Vancouver hotel" and just like that, I went numb. I couldn't believe it. I was drunk, my head was spinning. I couldn't cry. I couldn't speak. All I could do was say "No...that's crazy" And crawl into my bed and just knock out.

The next morning I researched again..and that's when it hit me. I can't even describe how heartbroken I was. I cried and cried and cried. I felt like I lost a friend. Who knew how much of a SERIOUS effect someone on TV can have on you. I've never met Cory in person..but I always dreamed to. He was driven. His motive was to fight his drug problem and stay clean. He had gone to rehab in April VOLUNTARILY and came back in June. He was clean..happy..healthy. Ready to work! Then, just like that, the drug demon took over. He mixed heroine and alcohol together..for one, mixing alcohol with another drug is DANGEROUS && two, his body was clean..so obviously the drug was too strong..and just like that..he left us. 

 I felt and STILL feel like it wasn't fair. He didn't have to die that way. Someone so driven and ready to get better..and a little temptation had to take him forever. I felt terrible. My poor Glee cast did not speak a word until a couple of days later. Lea Michele, his on and off screen GF ( for those who didn't know ) had not said one word. I can't even IMAGINE what that woman is going through. They were planning on getting married and moving in together. She was always with him, and the one time she wasn't..she had to get a call that her future husband had died.

Cory and Lea <3

NOBODY knew this was coming and I think that's what makes his death so freaking sad.

On Tuesday or maybe it was Monday, Lea Michele finally broke her silence. And she posted on both twitter and instagram.

I was sooooo happy to see that she was okay. She is one brave girl! Seriously.

Finn and Rachel <3

Ryan Murphy (producer of Glee) had left everything to her. If she wanted Glee to be canceled, he would have canceled it. If she wanted Rachel's character to be gone, he would've done it. But instead, she insisted the show keep on and also to have a nice episode dedicated to Cory. SHE IS WONDERFUL!!! I'm so proud of her. ugh, I'd be crying right now if I hadn't already cried so many rivers ='[[[[ !

Diana (Quinn), Mark (Puck), and Cory (Finn). So silly :P

Cory will FOREVER live in our hearts. #LONGLIVEFINNHUDSON! Love you buddy!

I HAD ORDERED A NECKLACE THAT SAYS "I [HEART] FINN" . GOING TO CHECK THE MAIL NOW TO SEE IF IT CAME. I SHALL POST A PICTURE OF IT!

A Day At the Beach

Yesterday, I went to the beach with the best friend Nour! Jones Beach in Long Island. It has to be one of my favorite beaches. It's clean, nice, and such an easy place to DRINK! LOL . Only, we didn't drink yesterday, we weren't prepared. Just wanted to catch up and hang out. It was fun without liquor anyway cuz there's NEVER a dull moment when I'm with my BFF! Of course we took some pics and made some InstaVids! LOL :-P

Facebook

I HAD TO GO OFF!!!!!!! I hate facebook. It's so lame now. I mean it's been lame for a while, but now I can't even take it. So I posted a status ranting...

Nuff' said. I deleted the APP off my phone too! Imma leave facebook for the ratchet lil kids, the dusty men, and the old people. I ain't got the time. I'm not deactivating just YET, but soon! I'm not gonna be checking my newsfeed anymore. Phuck Dat! Follow me on twitter, Instagram and tumblr, and keep up with this blog!



twitter: @richratch3t
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The Wonderful World of Nicknames..

Those of you who know me know I hate being called by my first name ( Karina ).

Why? Well my name was unique until I got to high school and met 75 other Karina's. And then as I got older I've learned to really love and appreciate my middle name, Brian'ye, and now like it 10 times more than my first and wish it was actually my first name. (damn you, Mother!)

Anyway, most of you that know me know me by my most common nickname, Rina. Fine. Whatever! Just another reminder of my first name >:O
But I just want you all to know that when I become television famous for whatever reason (indecisive because I'm talented and perfect at just about anything...............kidding!) I will not use Karina. I will use Brian'ye! So let's start getting used to that name, eh?

How do you pronounce it? BREE-AH-KNEE . Hence the reason my Instagram name was changed to kneezy___.

So now people call me Kneezy. People call me Anye (ah-knee) or Bre as well but RARELY. I'm happy either way =D Just lose the Karina because eventually I won't respond to you n*ggas! =P ..Laughing but VERY serious. I mean those who already know me by Rina get away with calling me that, but as for the rest of you..you do not have permission.

xoxo, BRIAN'YE <3 Kneezy